Friday, March 20, 2009

tHE Untold Story - Part V

Dear guys and gals,
Following is a page from Sneha's diary. I know the story has ended, but I needed to present perspective of both the side,then you can decide ultimately! We all have love stories, but its upto each of us to complete it or let it be incomplete.


Scribblings from Sneha's Diary


I feel guilty hurting him, though I love him, I can’t accept him. I don't know how to explain this, call it my ego or selfishness. But I always needed a man who is as qualified as me. He is not even a graduate.

Now I have stopped talking to him. Every two hours, I glance at my cell, hoping to see a message or call from him. I think it’s good this way, No messages, No calls. Just a brief silence, as though the moment is hung.

The problem is, he is very nice and adorable, every gals "dream guy" I would say.In fact he even agreed not to keep in contact, after I stated my reasons for not accepting him. Deep down somewhere, he hopes that I will come back to him. When we parted ways, both cried because the pain is caused by me and not any one else. I am guilty. Sorry seems to be a small word but I hope it can reduce the pain I have caused him. Initially he resisted, but I convinced him that tomorrow will be more painful because of my ego.

I can't seem to understand how he loves a gal like me who is so ego-centric?? Strange are the ways of love or I should say, love is complicated subject, the more you dwell on it, the more you seem to be lost. There is no right or wrong here, it’s only what you feel counts.


I am confused because I don't want to hurt him tomorrow. What if tomorrow after marriage, I introduce him to my friends saying he is a graduate when he is not?? wouldn't it hurt him?? It would be very unfair to him. The whole thing will shatter down.

So I ended it!! so that he won’t be more hurt by my selfishness!!

He says he won’t hate me for what I did to him. Because I have being always special to him and will remain the same always. At least if he hated me, it would be much easier for both of us. I wish things were different. Forgive me Naveen.


Who can say when heart sighs?
-----Only Time
Who can say when heart cries?
-----Only Time
-from Sweet November

25 comments:

Preeti said...

i would not try to judge her reason ...but appreciate that she has been honest about it ...Ego is a big hurdle in relationships ...

mayz said...

thats d reason?????? seriously???

moi said...

@preeti : ego can be bad!!

@mayz: yeah thats the reason stated by sneha. why?

mayz said...

well love isnt all that blind after all eh??

comfortably numb said...

now thts an interesting reason...practical too!!!
yep...love is blind no more:)

NE~ISM said...

I don't know what to say! She needed someone with a college degree.. I guess that was needed more than love! Sigh!!

Still It was great.. I loved every part of this story!! Simply Loved IT!!!

moi said...

@mayz: I think she was practical.Yeah love is not that blind i guess :)

moi said...

@comfortablynumb: hmmm yeah i guess so :(

@nehya: Yeah everyone has reasons!!
I am glad you liked it.

Chriz said...

ego irundhaaley ellam seeraliyum... relationships and wagera kaaam.. aaam .. baaath... man.. ellaam oru small vattam called life...

nalla oru beautiful story..

me the likes it very much ..

moi said...

@chriz: please translate the first three lines...
yeah i understood the last two lines.hehehe, so no translation for that

Lancelot said...

Chriz's message reads as follows,

"If there is Ego everything will be spoiled, LANCELOT is the Indian brad Pitt- all girls HAIL LANCELOT"

Lancelot said...

booooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooo hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo poor naveen - its the same reason why i lost my first love(confession) and also the same reason which made me what I am today...

//Who can say when heart sighs?
-----Only Time
Who can say when heart cries?
-----Only Time//

my all time favo song - Enya...

ApocalypsE said...

Naveen could never hate her no matter how much she hurts him... I guess everyone wants to find someone who loves them as naveen does Sneha...:)

The reason? thats stupid...

Have to see the movie... Heard enya's before :)

Suresh Kumar said...

I left a comment. But it disappeared. So retyping it.

Sorry.... but I lost myself between the lines and felt that it was my Simran talking to her Prem about the breakup.

Always thought of writing the separation part from Simran's angle but I feel as a boy, I may never do it a justice.

aZoed said...

an egoistic hypocrite.. that is what she seems like... Thank God she gave a clear enough and straight reason at least...

Chronicwriter said...

haha.. ego is the root cause of every relationship break ups... its a cycle which ends up at the beginning

www.chronicwriter.com

hope said...

*sigh* ishq hota nahi sabhi ke liye..

Keshi said...

atleast ur being honest abt what u want in a man.


**But I always needed a man who is as qualified as me. He is not even a graduate

They say Love is blind...so Im just wondering if u really loved this guy or was he just someone u were looking to 'fit' in to ur requirements? I think its the latter and trust me I hv walked in ur shoes too. Until I find LOVE, I know I will never be BLIND.

Im bak Moi :)

Keshi.

Lancelot said...

why no post for a long time???

Pri said...
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Pri said...

well u sure there isnt more to it??
sometimes there is more reason than what just meets the eye.
and if this was the only reason, then probably her love was never strong enough to begin with or maybe giving benefit of doubt--she wants him to prove himself successful in life first and knows that only their love being at stake can be motivation enough..
sigh! or maybe im just watching too many movies :-/

Suresh Kumar said...

Well! Its seems MOI and Charmed One have disappeared together from the blogworld.! Where are you, girls?

ApocalypsE said...

hello? anybody home?

Nikhil said...

Hey buddy it was lovely i was fortunate to read all the 5 episodes in one go.......I had also made an effort of writing about infedility(feeling cheated), but through different prespective.
here is the link:
read all the has cheated in the header.
http://fanatic-psyche.blogspot.com/

Daanish said...

A good one !!