Wednesday, March 31, 2010


I hate that word itself now. I don't dread it like I use to before, cos I have being to so many interviews now but with no luck on my side!!! After every interview,I use to sit and think what went wrong?? (Self help books always said that!!) They always said don't get upset over being rejected, just try to learn from them and don't do the same mistake next time. And mostly I screwed up with Technical rounds. With great difficulty I use to clear THE APTITUDE round (if I was lucky!!). And then came the most dreadful of all THE TECHNICAL round. Only once in my lifetime I have being very lucky to clear that and thats when I had landed on my first job!!! It felt like cloud 9.And I wanted to jump and dance and throw a party for getting my first job. It all seems like yesterday.But a long time has passed by!! And funnily my first job didn't require much of a technical work at all. So I wondered what was all the need of a technical job and moreover we get a training too on the job which we are going to be doing. Soon I got into another job, which was all seemingly too good to be true at that time. But I was just okay with it. Not very elated nor too sad. It was just a chore and was being paid more than I received previously. So it was all good. But you see, life is not perfect cake walk as we all want it to be. Every good story has a bad part, so did mine! otherwise story is not good everything happens good. So there I was always grumbling about not getting the pay I always wanted or demanded I should say!! And it started on to become frustrating with me and my job and my life. And I wanted a change, a change for good, a change for good life style. Was fed up of travelling in a crowded bus everyday, fed up of my boss not being very happy with my work and fed up of my food and life style. I will tell you what I use to feel. I use to feel I am the most poorest person on earth.I cant stop laughing at that statement I just made But yes I use to feel that. I mean I hated the clothes which I use to wear, those damn salwar kameez!!! It made me sick. I know I could buy new clothes and feel good. But I never had enough money. Salary use to come and it use to go on paying house bills and food,transport and other extra eating stuff and some insurance thing!! So I wanted more out of life as I was leading a very dull and frustrated life by then. So I took a biggest plunge and resigned. And yes its going to be 1 year next month. I feel like laughing and suiciding at the same time. As I am sitting at home still waiting for some miracle to happen now. I mean till last month, I never felt that I did the wrong thing. But this world and my condition at present has taught me that I had made the wrong decision.But sadly nothing can be done about it now. Its all in the past and I can just regret or cry or feel suicidal.Like good and smart people, I should have resigned only if I had another job in hand. But like a dumbass, I quit before finding another job. Cos I had wrongly assumed, that I would be in job within 3 months or so.
Life isn't that bad for me presently except I don't have a job.The JOBLESS tag has being stuck to me. But other than that, life is really good. I am staying with my parents and obviously have good food and good lifestyle.I mean I feel good with all those good things around, good clothes, good food and wine. And a loving boy friend and my tv serials and yes my novels.They all have being good. But still somewhere I do feel empty and it will be only complete when I have a job.

Okay enough of my melodramatic life story, I have forgotten the initial topic "Interview". Yeah that brings me to the most recent interview I had attended for a teaching post. Oh yeah I hate teaching, its just something than doing nothing I thought. Mom got the form for me. And after reading it, I was like forget it, I am not going to get selected. There are 3 rounds and I am sure I won't cross the 1st round itself. But still for every ones sake, I filled in the form and submitted.1st round being THE APTITUDE test, I was very cool. After writing it, I was like I am doomed, why the hell in the first place did I think of it!! After few days, results came that I cleared it!! I couldn't believe it, I thought may be the lady luck is after all with me. And then the next round was CRM ( Class room management) test. I was very sure I wouldn't clear this, as I had to take classes with students and teachers present to monitor us.And we had to use all those teaching aids for the demo to secure more marks and prepare a report about it. And the report had to be hand written. And we had being given just one day to prepare for our lessons and other stuff. So here I was stuck with all the chart papers and paper cutting and sketch pens surrounding me. And I am lost between them. At one time I was writing the report,next moment I am cutting out shapes and next I am confused what I am going to teach and how would I go about it. And it became 4am in the morning by the time I wrapped up everything. Next day, full prepared and slightly nervous I gave the demo with all the students and teachers present. It all seemed okay except that I couldn't handle the 2nd grade boys who were trying to act very smart and naughty at the same time. Enough of the drama, after few days, results came and I cleared it. Finally hard work paid off and that feeling of lady luck is shinning felt good. Next I had to just go for one final PERSONAL INTERVIEW round. I hate that round too cos here they grill you as though your not worthy of a person to be living on this planet earth!! After that round, you start feeling as though your the most dumbass presesnt on this earth and you are better off doing a clerical job than trying to becoming something else!! Okay so being like a good candidate, I prepared myself for the questions that will usually one will ask, like "Tell me about yourself", "why do you want to do this job" or etc. So here I enter the room with a panel of teachers and principals waiting to grind me off were seated in their respective chairs. Totally 4 people were present.
Principal : What subjects would you prefer??
Moi : Either computers or maths.
Princi : Why does the stars twinkle??
Moi (pauses for a moment and then full confidently answers): Stars don't twinkle,they just appear to be twinkling as they are far off.
Princi : Is there some science behind it??
Moi (wondering what science) : silence so as to not embarrass any one!!
Princi : why do people wear light color clothes in summer and dark color clothes in winter??
Moi(fully confused with the question and still confidently answering): Since light color clothes absorb less heat, we wear them in summer and dark color clothes in winter as it absorbs heat from the sun and keeps us warm. (the princi wasn't very happy with my answers as it showed on his face).
Princi : you are not very good with the subjects!
Moi : I will try to do my best if given a chance

Okay that was just a part of my interview which seemed funny to me and the rest part I have omitted as they were not-very funny parts. And after coming home, I declared to every one that I am not going to be lucky this time and I won't clear it at all. And then the results came out after few days and it turned out this time my lady luck wasn't shinning at all!! So this teaching chapter is over and become a past. And decided that teaching was a bad idea after all.

Now you know why interviews are so dreadful, they give you hope at each stage and finally when you reach the cliff, they push you off from it. Thats the way of life I have learned. No point of feeling suicidal cos every one has a bad day and in my case it's being a bad year and a bad decision. And I try to look at the good things in my life and count my blessings that god has showered on me.

And I hope I haven't bored you all with such a long post.


Rajat said...

something better is there in store for you.. so until you get it, don't give up

Suresh Kumar said...

sum 18 months back I too had resigned hoping for a better job.. But It didn't take much time before I started my own (Finance and Accounts gives u that option). Being ur own boss has a lot of advantages :)

The interview for the teachers post was fun to read. Cant say what was in his mind :)

Like Rajat says, dont give up. A better tomorrow is definitely sumwhere near

Travelling Rants said...

this was fun reading it..
nicely written i wish i could become my boss so that there is no thing like interview for me

rohini said...

try untill u succeed...u must have heard this...another one..watever hapns, hapns for gud...keep these spirits alive and continue with ur work....all the best....wish to see on page with ur views...

Lena said...

Good luck with job hunting! Am sure you find something soon :)

As for teaching, maybe it's good you didn't get in. That'a actually a hell of a job which starts annoying you a lot when you don't like it!

Anil P said...

Preparation needs to meet opportunity. Things will still turn out well.

ashwin ramachandran said...

Neatly written.
Btw, this is for you: "Remember, everything has a beautiful ending, and if it isnt beautiful, be sure it isnt the ending".
All the best for everything.

Sach! said...

be optimistic! And all the v besht...

I like your "heart belongs to india" :) so feel it now..


rainboy said...

keep applying you'll get waht you want... I left my job at dell last august...have been at home till today...still not regretting it.Coz I only want to do what I love.SO i'wait.

nice post...
nice replies to Q's in interview..hhee

take care

Travelling Rants said...

Good luck with hunting but i guess being boss of urslef is way better than anything..

Pri said...

"jab life ho out of control,
hoton ko karke gol,
hotoon ko karke gol,
seethi bajake bol,


keep up the spirit and wish u luck :)

mae said...

hhmm.. i haven't tried panel interview, but being interviewed by one person is nerve wracking. what more if you were interviewed by several people. :) well, the comments above are right i guess, there was something better in store for you. ;)